Friday, December 18, 2009

  1. I think I will go forward all the signs point that way even when i try to keep what i have and make it work, others seem to keep pushing me to go forward on my own path. I will be looking at subleases tomorrow, would be nice to have a home again , a place to relax so that is my sign this week.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Rainy Days

Have you ever felt trapped in your own life ? How can one person make so many happy all the time ?

if your supposed to make yourself happy first , why then are you told you are selfish for doing it?

it seems the more I try to make myself happy I am pulled in different mental directions.

another saying is how you are supposed live each day like it is your last

well i don't want to do anything normal on my last day thats for sure

Id like to travel and see the sun rise from a different view

road sings

i geuss it depend on what u want as to witch ones u fallow

but how do u know what u realy want ?? if you dont try one direction or another

i cant decide on a path so i stand at a four way stop and stare at my choices

the sleep has cleared my mind (somewhat) *;*

still i wonder

do i stay where i am safe but not satisfied do i go with no love

do i turn towards adventure or towards obscurity

four directions but witch one

so on my lil journey standing at my road signs i have found a comfort zone

i can always turn back... right ???

but if i do turn back will it be the same or will i return to find that i have been left behind?

and if it is the same isnt that what im trying new roads for ??

decisions decisions decisions

sleep how i wish i could

Another day with lots of things and not one of them held my attention for more then a few hours on

at what point do we actually notice the environment we live in ( and im not talking going green )

our soundings the path we take every day just to go to a place we have been 100 times before (work,store.. etc)

yet do we notice the path less traveled to that place, take a different rout , change the direction in with we live??

again the signs are right there but i don't think to read them or acknowledge that they exist

back to road signs

Coat Hangers

ever notice that kitchen knives are like wire coat hangers?

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Hi every one I hope all is well out there in the world.
I have started back to school after 18 years ... all i can say is Wow ..
all though i may have gained wisdom i am still a scared kid on the first day of school .
believe it or not , i had the sweaty palms and racing heart my eyes wide and short shallow breaths.
as my first week ended and i received my grades for all the work i did... i found my self with a 90% i missed only one question ... so the panic paid off with a great grade Ya me .
so i hope i never loose the drive (fear) that got me that 90 lol
OK just thought i would share this with you ..

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


Hi Everyone ,

I am sitting in Ceder Rapids, Iowa .... I brought a friend up here to see his mom in the hospital..
Ceder Rapids is the sight of the 500 yr flood that hit earlier this year .
in spite of all of that i have found upbeat positive genially good people in the last few days.
courteous drivers oh a big one for me ... ( I often wounder if anyone read the same test book that I did ) so many people do for others and little simple every day things mean so much more here they seem to value there time and care when they see a friend it is a wonderful feeling to be around folks who have this high energy thankful out look on life ....

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


I have voted and am proud to say i have missed 2 votes scenes i was 18
one was for a funeral and the other for a birth both to far away to return to the poles both I was not prepared for and both were for local issue's ( still I wanted to vote) My Pop always sed if you leave the table hungry its you'r fault if you want work you will find it and if you don't vote don't complane..... I miss his wise words so I have done my best to instill the same in my now adult children I hope they voted as well
I am Native American and its like the last voice they have given me so I chouse to use it !

Monday, November 3, 2008

Help Me the in-laws have taken over

Hello All ,
If there is anyone there, I don't even think the friend that got me here has read this yet even though this is her idea. lol
any way my new delima wow
I have my in-law who is staying (Living) with us and she is very sick !! Well I am doing all that one can do, I have given up my home to her (literally) we now reside in our basement while they (2 kids as well )who don't mind, clean up ,or respect anything not theirs, enjoy a nice ( once a neat , and clean ) 3 bedroom home. Our dogs have been locked down here with us as well as our cat , and all I here is how I don't make her feel welcome, so here is my question at what point do I get to take my home back because out side of handing her my bank codes I don't know what else to do.
We cant have company or do the things that we would normally enjoy in our home, yet she expects more, now I know that grace is supposed to help me though this but 3 months later I find my self with no sympathy, grace and all the good karma i had built up my whole life is even gone ...
so if any one has any advice for one desperate in-law and the situation of (I pray) of my life time Please I need all the info I can get
I hope to here any suggestions thank you all